Ramblings

Okay, well lately I have been digging my self a hole it seems that know matter what i have tried to do with my church, I am always at the losing end. I have left this church cause of the way some of the members have treated me.

Then to night I had recived a call from a so called friend and told me that they did not care what was going on and that I should stop e-mailing them and talking to them, but yet there the ones who keep on calling and startedc the whole e-mail and the calling everyday. When they call yes I do find ways of trying to get off the phone but tyhey always call when I am busy.

So now not only have I left my church/ kicked out because of my sexual oriantion, and the fact that having people medling in my life does not do well expecially if it cost me everything that kept me going for awhile. I have now lost a family that I have known for what is it like 4 1/2 years start being really quit rude and I am trying to peice this back but itsd a two sided sitution here i cant do all the work by myself.

So now I dont know what Im going to do. Living in my foster home is not working all that great right now, im looking at trying to get out on my own. I have lost like almost my whole sosial life besides the VanRooys' I am now like almost friend less. Its kinda sad actully.

Any ideas about anything here and let me know.